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What can I say...
That my life has changed so much?
It has
Yours has as well
We could not hold onto a moment if we tried.
Nostalgic?
Yes.
Of what?
...
I hate to think that I wasted two years of my life.
We had our good times we had our bad.
I hoped with all my heart she would find her own happiness.
But she ran to another and made their happiness her own.
Failure.
I found someone who made me smile, and gave me insight on my own view on love.
I was not trying to fill some void, or shroud myself in ignorance.
I fell into it, just the way I always do. And it felt right.
I knew it would end soon. But... everything ends sometime
So what did I do?
Enjoyed It! =)
everything ends sometime
She was Romance
I just wish that Amanda would have found her happiness, her own happiness. The "happiness in solitude" that she always wanted. Though, I needed to be free of her, it opened my eyes to the world I live in.
Not the dream world I was keeping myself in.
I regret the last 6-8 months. A waste of my life. She had already walked away.
She was Freedom
And as for krissi, I let myself get more attatched then I should have.
But how couldnt I? It is in my nature, and she was beautiful. My time with her made me realize how I really wanted to be living. Party. And more so than that, it made me realize what kind of female I am really looking for. She opened me up to a brighter world, and thats where I am trying to stay. Sucks I just so happen to love all her friends and have to work around seeing her to see them.
I dont regret being with krissi, I needed that change in perspective.
Maybe this is all too personal.
But I can bet the only people who will ever read it and care,
Are those who already care about me. |
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| Light Up
Yes, No
I Dont Know
Let me Think
Maybe So
One Minute or Two
Contemplation
Tick Tock
Meditation
Light Down
Invade Your Dreams
Light Up
Shrug that Off
Once Again
Let me Think
Yes No
Maybe So
And on it goes
With All these Thoughts that I Dont Know |
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| Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know....
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it
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| Recently it is starting to feel like
"Where has my brain gone"
I have been living in such a temporary state
I enjoy just the now
But I almost think I am being sucked too far into it
I feel like I should be aware of more than just what is infront of me |
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